Not perfect

Salam wbt

If I was asked about what thing I'm bad at.. My answer probably be driving.

Yeah I'm bad at driving.

I passed the theory part excellently.

But I just knew that knowledge isn't equal to understanding.

We need to apply the knowledge in order to understand a thing.

My driving skill is bad.

But I'm not going to give up. I wanna be a driver who drive slowly but safely.

Slowly but surely. Yeah thats how I will do it.

I don't wanna be the kind of driver who drove fast and crashed.

No

That's not my plan.

Not all driver are fast-learner. Slow driver also can reach the destination.

Give me time. 

O Allah who can read my broken heart right now, give me guidance.

Amin.

P/s : I'm not literally talking about driving.

But yeah.. I failed my jpj test eventho I achieved perfect score during theory test. It kinda relates, which is funny.

Hope to get my license real soon. (Now I'm literally talking about driving license)

Till then, pray for me! Thanks in advance.

Lame Error

Assalamualaikum...

Hari ni tujuannya adalah untuk membebel sahaja.

Well. Meet my best friends. 

Yang pakai baju oren tu Nik.

Yang depan tu Fiq.

Saya telah dilahirkan dengan satu kemampuan. Kemampuan untuk buat lawak hambar dan bercakap perkataan perkataan yang pelik. Saya berterima kasih kepada Allah kerana memberi saya dua orang sahabat ini, yang boleh menerima saya seadanya. 

Sebab mereka pun sama.....

Haha. 

Walaupun kami lame, kami gembira.

Sekian bebelan bye!

My vacation in a nutshell

Assalamualaikum dear reader(s),

I am becoming a boring person so this will be a very boring post so yeah whatever, read if you want. Haha.

So I have returned from my short and sweet holiday.

This time I went to 3+1 countries. Why +1? Because I was just transiting but it was 24++ hours transit time so I went out to the city. Hence explains the 3+1.

The 3 are... Budapest, Hungary

Vienna, Austria

Prague, Czech Republic

And the +1 is Manchester, UK.

I'm not going to elaborate much on the details. I just want to write my few 50 cents thought hihi. And I'm gonna put them in points and for the record, they are not chronological according to time. Random and messy points.

1. Back to Narnia. Okay, actually back to Russia after a week of holiday. I really hate going back to Russia. Me and Russia, we have this kind of love-hate relationship. But as I reflect back on my life, I should have been grateful. I have a proper education with partial scholarship and I get the chance to see the world unless some other people. So well, Russia, let's have this professional relationship for 1 and a half year more. Okie dokie?

2. When the flight arrived at the Domededovo Airport in Moscow, the steward said this "If anyone is travelling back home, welcome back home!" (Ok I was too sleepy to remember the exact words and forgive me for the grammar error). But his words really made me feel homesick. I want to go back home too!! 

3. Oh I have a great luck with the hostels this time. So anyone travelling to the same spots, you can reserve these places : 

Goszdu Apartment, Budapest 

Rutheinsteiner Hostel, Vienna

Wandering BB Praha, Prague

4. I didn't buy a lot of souvenirs like I always do. Kinda regret it. But what to do. Haha. Sorry everybody.

5. I really love buying gifts for others. It becomes a habit. I think this has something to do with my name. Nawal means gift.

6. Now that I think of it, I want to name all my kids 'Nawal'. Haha okay Im mad

7. I think buying ipad was one of my wisest decision. I only charged her(yeah my ipad is a she) about 2 times during my 7 travel days. Um I havent named my ipad. Ughh too sleepy cant think of any cute name right now. 

8. Oh I took Orange Ways bus from Budapest to Vienna. The bus was late for about 40 minutes. But they hired a very cheerful and talkative so-called stewardess, so all the passengers were entertained by her and kinda forget and forgive about the late bus. Haha nice move Orange Ways.

9. For the journey to Prague, I took Student Agency bus. Thumbs up. Best bus ever. Very recommended. They served you with drinks. You get the earphone to watch the movie on the screen located in front of you and the service was awesome. Thanks to our handsome steward Daniel haha. And oh they got wifi too!

10. The currency of Hungary was really confusing! I have a hard time converting the money, thus explained why I just bought 7 fridge magnets from Budapest! 

11. I really love Primark. Yeah I'm a cheapskate like that.

12. One thing I learned during my holiday, it is not the place you go that matters, it is who you travelled with that matters. Huhu I really want to travel with family and him. 

13. I don't know why, I have this compulsive feeling to get married during my holiday. Haha. I have gone mad.

14. Oh I only ate at halal restaurant this time! Szeraj or Seeraj in Budapest, Halal Pizza and Kebab in Vienna (metro Westbanhof then take the tram and get down on the third stop) and Pakistani restaurant in Prague (near to the Islamic centre in Prague). And Jazeera in Manchester. Yummmmm

15. Oh and this time, I have travelled with the travelmates who love to try new drinks at every local supermarket. So I tried a lot of new drinks (mostly coffee and milk of different flavour). My personal favorites are caramel macchiato latte (bought at Spar) and Manner wafer milk (I just took a sip from Yan but I think I love this one! It is like you're drinking a wafer haha. 

16. I don't know what to write anymoarrr. So I just ROAAAARRR.

17. Congrats Nik ❤️ you're the best, remember that.

18. I love Cath Kidston no matter what.

19. Um my personal favourite place for each city :

Budapest - Castle Hill District

Vienna - Belvedere Castle

Prague - Charles Bridge

20. I really really really love funicular ride!!!! 

21. Hungarian paprika looks like cili kering to me.

22. There is no kangaroo in Austria. Okay lame to the power of lame error.

23. You can actually drink the tap water in Austria. 100% fresh from Alps. But I still bought the mineral water -________-

24. Prague is also called as city of love. And Prague is sooooo beautiful! They really preserved the old classy architecture.

25. Vienna closes at 6pm. Sleepy city at night. Gloomy during the day. Maybe due to the cloudy weather.

26. Budapest is actually Buda city connected to Pest city with the bridges. Buda and Pest are separated by river. And you can actually differentiate both city. One is more modern while another one preserve the old version of the city.

27. I use this poyo hashtag for my holiday pictures in instagram #nawalgoingplaces muehehehehehe

28. I am officially a frequent flyer of easyjet. Haha. Low-cost fare airline. Last year, I had a bad luck because I need to urgently unpack my luggage because only one hand luggage was allowed on cabin. But this year.... Wehuuuuu I received the complementary gift from easyjet to check in all my luggage for FREE! Suddenly I'm in love with easyjet. Kehkeh. You know, it all depends on you rezeki. Thank you Allah.

29. Above all, alhamdulillah ya Allah for this opportunity. I won't stop travelling and exploring the world inshaAllah. So where's next? Till then!

30. Assalamualaikum!

👋👋👋👋👋👋👋

Basikal

Assalamualaikum wbt

Memang la tiba tiba rajin nak update blog sebab sekarang musim exam. 

Sabun basuh and lotion; okay aku punya pemalas tahap aku malas nak picit sabun basuh and lotion punya botol masa nak keluarkan isi dia. Okay harap faham bahasa aku yang pelik dan berbelit belit. Jadi tak berapa banyak la yang keluar isi dia. Lepas tu bahagian deep dalam otak aku pun fikir, 

"Cehh memang kena tekan benda alah ni, kalau tak hasil keluarannya tak berapa memuaskan"

... Hmpphh...

"Tekan - tertekan - tekanan - pressure"

"Oh patut la penting pressure. Kalau takde pressure memang tak memberangsangkan hidup ni"

"Pressure ni macam driving force gitu"

"Hm pressure betul nak exam"

Okay lebih kurang macam tu la otak aku punya deep fikir pasal botol sabun basuh.

Aku ni susah gila nak tertekan. So sebab tu kadang kadang aku nampak relax. Tapi sebenarnya aku gelabah juga sebab aku relax.

Yes macam tu la complicated seorang aku.

Okay jadi kejadahnya aku update blog.

"Study la woiiiiiii"

Hmphhhhhhh

Harap takde orang baca sebab ni literally aku mengarut. 

Pressure mana kau I need you!!

Okay sesiapa baca harap doakan diriku, terima kasih ku dahulukan.

Ummmm gedio lagi nak cerita. Takde la kot. Ok bye assalamualaikum!

Alamak wait... Tajuk aku basikal

Sebenarnya nak cakap, hidup ni ibarat kayuh basikal. 

Kayuh, kayuh, kayuh...

Boringnya woi

Tapi kau kena gak kayuh sebab only dead people stop moving. 

*Tetiba speaking*

So kayuh jela basikal. Belek la balik kertas tu nawal.

Okay ni bye betul haha salam!

Review or Keyboard Warrior?

Assalamualaikum :)

And again.. I read status of my facebook friend. She wrote that she didn’t agree with the statement “Don’t judge islam by judging muslim”. I kinda agree and at the same time disagree with her.

I kinda have this habit to review the status of my friends. Am I considered as a keyboard warrior now? I hope not >_<

Okay, why do I agree with her?

I have this analogy. We love to read the testimony first when we want to buy something. For example, um.. let’s say Herbalife. We will search for herbalife page, read the advantage bla bla bla and then we will read the testimonials! We see our friends lose weight in 1 month, some are slower than others etc. So based on that, we will choose either we want to consume the herbalife or not.

Same like religion, as a human, we tend to see how the attitude of people of this religious. Because, being a religious person means we believe with what that religion offers us, and automatically we will do what the religion taught us. We are the reflection of our own religion. If you don’t want people to misunderstand about your religion, be a good example. Show them what your religion has taught you. If you keep showing bad examples and do bad deeds, how people around you suppose to think good of your religion? A bad driver could make people curse at a good car he drives.

And….

Why did I disagree at the same time?

Because islam isn’t herbalife. It is not a product. Herbalife is created based on the research of the physiology of a human. They plays with human metabolism, which is more objective. Good metabolism, good effect!

But what about religion? It plays with your heart, your soul, which is in this case more subjective!

People say “learn religion with your heart, not your brain”

The guidance (hidayah) is given by Allah to whom He chooses. ( and of course, we need efforts to be chosen by Him)

“O you who believe! If you help (the cause of) Allah, He will help you and make firm your feet”

47: 7

Nowadays, people became muslim mostly by inheritance. Some of us are muslim by name, but not by actions. But that is the biggest nikmat and gift Allah had given to us. Born as muslim is like winning one million without a single effort (and of course even one million doesn’t worth born as muslim). But, human always take for granted something that they get easily. Born as a muslim doesn’t make a person a real muslim. Again with the analogy, even a person is has 1 million dollars without a single effort being done, he still needs to spend it wisely, and if he spends it badly on sinned things, he is not a good person. Same with a born-muslim. You need to work to become a better muslim.

Nabi Muhammad s.a.w once said in the hadis, “..there will be one day that muslim will be like bubbles in the ocean…..”

Large in quantities but no quality.

So, it is not fair for islam to be studied only by looking at the muslims. Study islam, don’t study the muslims. Because muslims aren’t perfect.

But, to my muslim friends n me, please, that is not an excuse for us to escape from being a real muslim. Work towards that! Become one! Don’t let people misunderstood our religion over and over again!

So, that is my two cents. Well more like fifty cents now. xD

Being a keyboard warrior is really easy *looking at the mirror* *sigh*
But remember, better being a keyboard warrior than being a silent warrior.

So.. In the end, I agree to disagree with my friend’s opinion.

Assalamualaikum.

Rationalism

Assalamualaikum

I should be studying right now. I have obstetric exam tomorrow. Yeah I know. I should be sitting like a nerd now, burning the midnight oil. But, you know, it’s just the second week of school. The nerd inside me is missing somewhere and very shy to go out. So here I am, out of nowhere, writing a new blog post after so long. Hi!

I just read a status by my senior. And the status literally made me smile. Why? Because he is being so rational!

Waaa, what did he wrote anyway?

Well, he wrote about, maggi!

Err.. okay, maggi. Haha I know right, I should be worrying about fetal skull size right now, but all I did is writing about maggi and how on earth status about maggi related to rationalism?

He said that maggi is not good, but during hard time, when empty wallet teaches you about the value of life, maggi becomes our saviour!

Yeah. True enough.

My point is..

I like maggi. Especially tom yam.

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Okay fine. My point is..

 

When we’re looking at something, don’t just look from one side. It might be bad from this side, but turn the angle slightly lower or upper, you might have a better view.

That’s why angle is very important in photography. And that is also why only some people can be good photographer. The one who knows to choose the right angle.

You might be really against maggi because of their bad side effect, but try to understand why still the person choose maggi when they know it is not good?

Think. Be rational.

 

 

Good luck exam Nawal.

BURSTTT

Assalamualaikum dear readers.

Don’t stay because this would an emo post. I am really sorry for being emo. People is not perfect. Trying to be one, but I can’t sometime. (okay emo)

Summer Holiday

A very meaningful and memorable one. I really love staying is Malaysia. Where my heart belong. Where my loves one live. Where I can live my dream. Malaysia is so meaningful to me that I can cry everyday remembering it. So stop, enough about Malaysia.

Back to Volgograd

Hari tu ada jalan dgn (oh sorry tuka BM la pulak) … oh where did I stop? Okay hari tu ada jalan dgn mimi n ayu. Diorang kata, this is their first time feeling mcm back to home bila sampai dekat Volgo. Which.. I dn feel d same thing! Volgograd is certainly not my home. It is like the pitstop that I stop for 6 years :( all the happy feeling and good mood when I was in Malaysia gone! In a second.

Class

Okay, I am a 4th year medical student (POYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO). 4th year means you need to grow up. So grow up, Nawal!

Raya

I am the AJK dewan and my work specifically is to decorate the dewan. But the problem came in last mins, and the dewan gone. And I need to be ajk open-air so called garden theme raya. Alhamdulillah for the bestest team I had. Alhamdulillah for the good weather. Alhamdulillah for everything.

People

Warning : the most emotional part. I think people is weird. People can be really selfish. THATS ALL.

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BYE

Not my luck

Assalamualaikum dear readers,

Humm! An emo title post?

No laaaa, don’t worry!

Today, I had the internal disease practical exam (or we called it therapy practical exam). So what happened? Before that, let’s go back a day before!

1 day ago…

As I was studying, and i thought, if I won’t be able to finish reading all those geeky medical stuff, I prayed to Him.

“If I wasn’t going to remember all these stuff for tomorrow, please make me remember when I’m going to be a doctor later”

So..

Today…

He answered my prayers. I forgot so many things! My mark wasn’t that good. I answered my lecturer’s question badly. To make it worse, I need to answer the exam with the HOD, a.k.a our DEAN.

Why did I say that Allah has answered my prayers?

Because, after what had happened today, I know that I wasn’t good enough. I am no longer that “last minute specialist”. In order to gain the best, I need to give the best too. What you sow is what you reap. I will make sure, that I will be one of those competent doctors one day! Amin :)

So that is my day. How about you?

Till then, salam!

TRY!

Assalamualaikum wbt

Hello dear readers..

Yeah, this 3rd year n stuff had made me a really busy person. But, I will always have time for nap..and often, a mere nap turns to oversleep. Plus, blogging is no more a routine for me. I will write only when I feel like writing, like right now. So, why do you feel like writing Nawal?

Exam’s timetable is OUT!

(kiasu gila)

Today, Syeeda n me had a conversation on our way back from the hospital, we talked about how will we go through this examination phase. It’s like 5 PAPERSSSSS (haha senior would punch me for this, they maybe already adapted to 5 papers)

But…..

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
Gotta get up and try try try
You gotta get up and try try try

So get up and try!

Try try try and leave the rest to Him. The right concept of tawakkal.

Goodluck to all Volgogradians! We’ll do well, inshaAllah :)

Till then, salam :)

Brain

Assalamualaikum :)

Brain – akal

Wherever you go, whenever it is, and whatever you do and say, do it with heart and bring along your brain.

We never know hati orang, you could think it is funny, but you never know how people feel.

Betul lah frasa, orang yang banyak diam itu bijak. Talk only when you have something beautiful to say, if you don’t, just keep silent.

Pagi tadi terbaca tentang Maryam Jameela, she is one of the example that walking her talk.

I could talk the talk, but can I walk the talk?

Semoga Allah mengunci mulutku jika ia hanya perkataan sia sia, dan semoga Allah melancarkan pertuturanku jika ia bermanfaat.

May Allah bless.

Assalamulaikum.

3

Assalamualaikum :)

Three.

We almost reach three. But we decided to stop at two.

I don’t know if this is the best. Or I will regret this for the rest of my life. I just don’t know. And I will never know. There is no answer to this. At this very moment, I think this is the best I could do.

This is life. We need to make decision. Even thing as simple as buying sandwich at Subway, we need to make decision. Which one to buy, and during that process we will do critical thinking. Tuna? or Seafood? Or salmon? And at the end, we need to do decision.

Life is about making decision, to choose. But, we never know which one is the best decision.

I hope He guide me through this. Honestly i didn’t know whether I am strong enough for this or not.

:’)

Sochi.ru 2013

Assalamualaikum :)

Alhamdulillah masih berkesempatan untuk hidup dan masih diberi ilham untuk terus menulis. So, exam done, and holiday is next! This winter, I chose Sochi as my winter holiday spot. Actually it was a long story, i was planning to go to London, then Italy, then I decided to hibernate together with the polar bear n penguin in Volgograd, but He knows which place better for me, so here I am in Sochi, Russia.

When any of my friends asked, “Ko g mana?” I will answer “Sochi..” And they will like, where on earth is that? Okay, Sochi is located on south Russia, and to make it easy to imagine where it is, it is located really really near to Black Sea. Next year, winter olympic will be held here. So maybe the price will increase after the olympic, so I grabbed this chance to go there before the olympic started.

So the story begin………

Character : Me, Cuya, Ayu and Yasar

Trip kali ni sangat2 lah trip bidan terjun in which cuya tanya saya, ayu tanya yasar, bincang2, ajak orang lain then tetiba semua senyap then tetiba bising balik and bam! Jadi lah kami berempat sahaja yang pergi. Tiket dibeli masa study leave, in which masa tu sgt2 dekat dgn exam. No planning, no research, just tanya2 orang sahaja. Tiba2 dah 25hb, so jom lah kita bertolak.

So, untuk trip yang gamble begini, saya sarankan, sila bawa 3 benda ini :

1. Peta, smart phone, tablet, gadjet (so u wont lost, at least these thing would help you)

2. Physical yang mantap (in case u are lost, u need to walk A LOT to find the way back)

3. Kebergantungan dan ketawakkalan yang mantap dan sepenuhnya kepada Allah (because you never know what will happen)

Jadi, kami ke sana dengan train, and it was 18 hours train! Jadi, apa yang diperlukan untuk survive? Yes of course, food!

So this is us, with the food, in the train. *ngeeeeee*

DAY 1

Alhamdulillah after 18 hours, we were safely arrived at Sochi, and we took taxi to the hotel that we booked earlier (Alhamdulillah kami still waras untuk book hotel awal2, credit to ayu n yasar)

The hotel was nice, comfortable, especially the shower, sadly I didnt took any picture of the shower. And after check in and bersihkan diri yang dah menjeruk setelah 18 jam di dalam train, kami pun ready untuk berjalan.

First PLANNED destination : Delfinarium

Apakah itu delfinarium? Okay anda tahu kan aquarium? Aquarium bermaksud transparent tank yang mengisi hidupan2 laut. Jadi, delfinarium (delfin = dolphin) bermkasud tempat kehidupan dolphin. Jadi kami pun bertanya arah kepada penduduk tempatan dan berjalan dan terus berjalan. Okay, sesat.

Tapi islam tak mengajar kita untuk berputus asa, jadi kami pun meneruskan perjalanan, *gelak jap* sesat lagi. Seorang penduduk tempatan bagitahu kami yang delfinarium itu hanya dibuka pada pukul 3 ptg sahaja, dan pada waktu itu jam telah menunjukkan pukul 5 petang. TOO LATE, TOO LATE. So kami decide untuk ke bandar Sochi. Perhaps we can come again to delfinarium other day (we never come again hihihihi)

Second PLANNED destination : Riviera Park

Untuk ke Riviera Park yang terletak di tengah bandar Sochi, kami perlu menaiki mini bus. What number? Bila tanya soalan ni pada penduduk tempatan, they just answer “any bus that wrote SOCHI” okay, thats really helpful. Jadi, ketika saat2 genting begini, apa yang kita sangat perlukan adalah bekalan no 3! Berbekalkan bismillahirrahmanirrahim, kami pun naik bas. Alhamdulillah, Allah itu Maha Menolong, there was one nice lady that help us, told us where to stop and how to go there.

Kami turun di station "Gostinitsa Moskva”, from there, we need to walk a bit to Park Riviera. Jadi kami sekali lagi, melencong hihi. This time, put the blame on the little puppy. Afraid of the dog, we decided to enter Cinnabon and consumed a bit of glucose, so we have extra ATP for the walk!

Then, off to Riviera Park! So picture speaks thousand words, here it is..

   

After walking around the park, the stomach really wants to be filled. We went to a restaurant PUC (in english, RICE).

Tired and full. Let’s called a day. Goodnight. Day 1 end.

DAY 2

Today we woke up early because we were going to the main attraction in Sochi, Krasnaya Polyana! The place where we can sliding and falling and twisting freely on the thick white snow! It’s a place for skiing and snowboarding.

40 km journey, lebih kurang KL ke genting highland. The ticket was only 15 rubles (=rm1.50) so cheap!

There are 3 interesting stories about Krasnaya Polyana :

1. Its scenery. So breathtaking! Even I showed the picture, it wouldnt be the same if u look with your own naked eyes. Subhanallah!

2. We were enjoying ourselves so much with the ski! It’s once in a lifetime experience :)

3. This is a very long story. If you wish to hear, please stay.

Bila sampai je kat atas tu, saya dan ayu sangat excited, lagi2 bila kami nampak chairlift! Chairlift is my dream come true. I always wanna ride on that. So after few trial of skiing, saya and ayu nak naik benda tu. Ayu ajak yasar and cuya decide untuk stay. Kami dengan gelojoh dan excitednya berlari2 ke tempat nak naik chairlift tu. Yuhuu! Disebabkan excited terlebih, maka saya dan ayu telah meninggalkan yasar terkebelakang dan menaiki chairlift tersebut terlebih dahulu.

Zuupppp naik! OKAY. INHALED. EXHALED. GASPING FOR THE AIR.

Ayu : Mana seat belt?

Me : NO? NO!

TAKDE SEAT BELT. And the chairlift start rising, curam. We were like, astaghfirullahalazim all the way up. Then yasar at the back scream something like &**&^$%^^&*(^. Taktau apa dia cakap, no idea. Kami dengar macam “see back”. Then ayu scream back “Im afraid, dont want to talk”

Kami dah macam patung lilin, keras dan mengeras dan jangan tgk bawah. Saya buat diskusi dengan ayu. Kita turun nanti naik cable car la, tak berani la naik benda ni. Ok muktamad, turun dengan cable car!

And… sampai! Alhamdulillah! Then bila saya pandang belakang, oh man!! Kenapa yasar ada seat belt? (sebenarnya yasar jerit seat belt)

The whole journey, me and ayu didnt pull the palang that should be penghadang from jatuh! Di manakah kewarasan kami? Otakku tertinggal di dewan exam kah? Alhamdulillah Allah masih menyelamatkan kami. So dangerous. Jangan tiru aksi kami.

FUHHHHHHH.

And.. cerita kami tidak terhenti di situ sahaja, bila kami pandang sekeliling, kosong dan terpencil, yang kelihatan hanyalah pergunungan salji yang curam. Kami tanya abang tu, rupa2nya the only way down is by skiing or snowboarding!

*LITERALLY SCREAMING* *CRYING OUT LOUD*

Kami, 30 minutes experienced ski-ers, what do you expect from us?

Cubaan untuk ski seperti pro berakhir dengan aksi bergolek2 di atas snow. Ok ini tak boleh jadi. So kami cabut ski tersebut dan berjalan kaki menuruni gunung tersebut. Way to go down seems like forever. Jauuuuuuhhhhh di mata. Pada waktu seperti ini, setiap bekalan diperlukan. Bekalan no 1 untuk merakam detik2 mencemaskan tersebut, bekalan no 2 untuk terus bertahan untuk menuruni gunung dan bekalan ke 3 adalah bekalan terpenting! Pada waktu itu, kami hanya mampu berdoa kepada Allah agar dipermudahkan urusan untuk turun ke bawah. Saya dan ayu sudah mula rasa untuk menangis. Apakah nasib kami T___T

Dan benarlah, pertolongan Allah itu pasti. Allah Maha Penyayang lagi Maha Pengasih. Benarlah Allah itu seperti sangkaan hambaNya. Jika kita bersangka baik kepada Allah, maka yang baiklah akan datang kepada kita. Pasukan penyelamat datang untuk menyelamatkan kami yang sangat helpless. Salah seorang pakcik yang sgt kesian kepada kami telah memanggil pasukan penyelamat untuk mengambil kami dengan motor (or motor ski or tak tahu). Alhamdulillah kami berjaya turun dengan selamat.

Lesson gained. Don’t be too excited, tanya dahulu, dan doa itu seharusnya sebelum kita melakukan sesuatu, bukanlah ketika saat genting barulah hendak berdoa seperti kami yang mula berzikir apabila takut.

So, the pictures!

     

Hari ni sangat dapat tarbiyyah, alhamdulillah. Tarbiyyah itu datang dari pelbagai cara. Tinggal kita sahaja untuk berfikir. Day 2 end.

Day 3

Untuk hari ke 3, kami rancang untuk ke : Dendrarium! Tempat hidupnya segala flora, it is more to botanical park.

Ya, itu rancangannya, tapi bila tengok tiket, errrkkkk takpela lagi2 semuanya bukan pencinta kipas susah mati flora, huu teruknya kami. Mungkin harus lebih mencintai selepas ini.

Jadi, kami pun melakukan perkara yang tak pernah2 dibuat oleh orang lain di sochi. To shopping complex we go!

More Mall (translation : Mall Pantai)

I didnt shop anything. Stop lying, Allah marah. Okay, I shopped. I bought shoes, muffler, and blazer. All in pink. Pink is so my colour :)

Sebenarnya hari ke 3 ni banyak habis dengan berjalan. Best ke berjalan? Macam buat penat je. Maybe kadang2 terasa seperti waste time je berjalan, kan ada public transport. U could save more time. Tapi dengan berjalan, we get two benefits! First, it strengthen our muscle, especially for us student who tend to sit all day long on a chair studying. Let’s give our muscle extra work this time. And secondly, we could entertained our eyes with the scenery, to see the life of the local people, and many more along the way. Tak masuk dendrarium pun takpe, bunga2 dan pokok2 tepi jalan pun cantik and Allah hadiahkan free untuk kita! Bukanlah jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan?

Day 3 end.

Day 4

This is our last day here in Sochi. Tired, we woke up late. We start our journey at 1, maybe? We went to the black sea, near to our hotel. Lamanya tak sampai pantai! Pantai never ever disappoint me! There’s one feeling in the heart when you stand by the sea shore, the sea breeze, and the wave sound, bliss! Pantai kat sini lain dengan pantai di Malaysia. There is no single sand here! Tapi ada batu2 yang sangat cantik. We stay there for a while, taking pictures and the wave goodbye to the sea.

After that, we went to souvenir shop to buy some souvenirs to family and friends!

19.11 29th Jan – Our train from Sochi to Volgograd. Goodbye Sochi, thanks for the memories.

And I would say, even though Sochi isn’t famous as other Europe cities, it is special in its own way. Alhamdulillah for this opportunity to visit this place.

“The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way”

Assalamualaikum!

Oh My Philosophy!

Assalamualaikum,

One down. Two more. Alhamdulillah for the first exam (alhamdulillah, doesnt apply only when we happy, it applies to all condition, keep that in mind)

So, my next paper will be this – PHILOSOPHY.

Kenapa lah kena study philosophy ni? Apa kaitan dgn medic? Nak jadi doktor manusia lah, bukan doktor falsafah. Perlu ke philosophy ni?

Dari second year, until lah 3rd year, dah 2 tahun belajar philo, persoalaan world outlook masih tak difahami, tapi persoalan yang tak berhenti bermain di minda adalah “WHY DO I NEED TO STUDY PHILOSOPHY”

Nawal oh nawal, selagi anda tak buang soalan itu dari minda, selagi itu lah anda tak kan faham apa itu world outlook.

Heh, manusia (aku la tu), selalu mempersoalkan benda remeh, hingga tujuan utama entah ke mana. Dua tahun duk kalut pening kenapa kena study philosophy, satu zarah atom fakta pasal philosophy pun tak melekat di minda. Padan muka nawal.

Maka otakku yang sedang berkecamuk memikirkan philosophy ini ter-flash kepada sesuatu sharing yang diberikan oleh seorang ustaz. Kata beliau, nak jadi orang yang hebat, tak perlu jadi ‘alim(yakni berilmu) dalam sesuatu perkara sahaja, tapi jadi lah musaqaf(berpengetahuan) sikit2 dalam pelbagai bidang ilmu pengetahuan. Dari ilmu alif ba ta, ke ilmu matematik, bahasa bahasa, sains dan teknologi, isu semasa ke isu bola sepak n gossip artis(eh? okay tak perlu), kita kena tahu sikit2. Tak perlu mendalami kesemuanya, cukup lah tahu basic. Dan at the same time, jadilah ‘alim dalam bidang yang diceburi kita.

So Nawal, dah dapat jawapan? Kenapa kena study philosophy? Memang, memang and memang tidak jumpa kaitannya dengan bidang medic pujaanmu itu, tapi takkan nak tau pasal ubat, penyakit je, lepas tu takde dah? Nak borak dengan patient pasal treponema pallidum memang patient kamu takkan faham lah cik nawal. Jadi, secara rasminya aku berterima kasih pada universiti ku tercinta kerana menetapkan subjek philosophy dalam syllabus. InsyaAllah ilmu philosophy yang bakal ku study bersungguh sungguh untuk exam boleh jadikan aku manusia musaqaf, dalam philosophy.

Hehehe, hebat sembang cik kak? Buat nye idok? Amek ladon(baca=palm) tampaq muka sendiri #palmface

Moga Allah redha dengan ilmu-ku :) strive for next paper!

p/s : Kerja doktor n dai’e at the same time banyak memerlukan diri untuk menyantuni byk pihak, jika ilmu hanya sedikit, bagaimana nak mendekati orang? Bak kata bahasa senangnya, susah nak buat borak susah jugak ye.

Parents and their dream

Assalamualaikum wbt

Hello dear readers (if u still exist), haha. Sorry for my missing in action. Maybe I shud named this blog as random and seldomly posted blog!

I just watched “Gifted Hand : Ben Carson Story”. I was like mad with myself for a second because why did it takes 20 years and 40 days for me to discover this inspiring story.For those who haven’t yet watch this story, I humbly recommend this story for you. Ben Carson was and is still a legend in medicine. He is the neurosurgeon and the first one successfully operate on the siamese twins. What more interesting about him is the journey of his life. From the boy who had been called as “dummies” until a successful neurosurgeon. Along with him was his mom, the great mom. His mom, a single mother of 2, who can’t even read, but yet has been a great mom, mother behind the success of his two sons.

My favourite words of his mom,

“You can do anything anyone else can do, only you can do it better”

That’s really a parents’ word right?

Then, as soon as I finished watching, I am excitedly tweet about this story and while scrolling down the timeline, I read a tweet by TED, it sounds like this

“Why do parents think it’s so easy to get straight A’s?”

And now that’s really the children’s word right?

Haha. Throughout my life, I’ve been stressed out by my mother especially to always maintain the good and excellent result. I could say, what I am today, it is because of my mother. She had push me to go this far. She had been dreaming about me being a doctor since I could remember, that was like when I was 4, maybe?

She will always remind us to study hard, to get straight A’s, to get a good grade, good rating in the class. Haha, sometimes I wonder, did she think that it is really easy to achieve that. But, as I grow up, I understand that, that is the parents’ job. To believe us when others don’t. To have faith in us. Who else would be dreaming for us besides them?

So, maybe, sometimes, some moment, some seconds, we think that they are putting so much hope on our shoulder by saying those words, but believe me, they just want to encourage us, for us to put some faith in ourselves in our little room of heart, to be confident of ourselves! If we succeed, it is us who got the credit, and they will just be sitting from afar, cheering for us. And if we failed, believe me, they will be the first person to hold us from falling down. That’s parent

So, thank them for all!

p/s : teringat masa fail test JPJ tahun lepas, I was so scared to tell my parents, and risau sangat2 they will put the blame on me and whatsoever, so I decided to message abah. I wrote, “abah, sorry kakak dah fail”. And for a sec, came in the reply and abah said “takpela, lain kali pulak. Boleh balik dah ke?”. And I was like fuhhhhh lega and sayang abah! And my mom was cool too. Though I know they were sad. I was really bersalah sbb membazir 1k++ for the fees just to get the “GAGAL” cop on my kertas! I will do the best for my next test! (and that was moment that I realize that I am really noob in driving a car) haha. Sad moment of my life, one of them! But Im lucky to have ma and abah

So, that’s all for now! Till we meet again, insyaAllah, God willing

because home is where the heart belongs to

Assalamualaikum wbt

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. 5 hari dah tiba kembali di Volgograd. Happy? Not really. Dah tu kenapa alhamdulillah sampai 3 kali?

I would say, alhamdulillah is not the word yang kita hanya boleh ucap bila kita happy je. Sedih, duka, lara, terlampau happy, lupa dunia ke, alhamdulillah tu mesti sentiasa diucap, and jangan lupa, alhamdulillah tu bukan sekadar kata2 or ucapan, it is a manifestation, that we are really grateful to Allah, tak kira lah dalam apa jua keadaan kita FULL STOP.

Back to Volgograd, bukan lah perkara yang gembira. Seminggu sebelum balik, bermacam main dalam kepala. Contohnya,

“Kalau tak balik kan best”

“Tak nak balik boleh taaaak?”

Lebih kurang macam tu la. Bila sampai kat KLIA pun, hati pun berat semacam. I cant even talk to my parents, lagi2 nk tgk mata, because I will cry immediately. So ma and abah, sorry kalau kakak senyap je hari tu ;(

Sampai di Volgo, memang masih tak happy. Nak update status ckp safely arrived pun sangat malas! Macam tu lah benda yang terakhir nak bagitau dunia.

But then, 2 hari lepas, kami semua dikejutkan dgn berita kemalangan pelajar Nizhny. Takziah buat keluarga. Al fatihah.

This really make me think. I always mcm tak nak balik Volgo daaaaaah! But, Allah sampaikan saya dengan selamat di Volgo. Macam wake up call, Nawal get up please, kenapa sangat terpengaruh dengan bisikan syaitan. Bersyukurlah, wherever you are now, it is where He want to place you because He know what the best for you, and you should remember that when Allah brings you somewhere, He’ll definitely bring you through it, and you shud be really grateful for where you are now :’)

So that definitely explain my alhamdulillah. Again, alhamdulillah ya Allah.

But of course, I miss home so much. I miss my family so much.

Teringat zaman dulu2 kat MRSM PC. I was so strong back then. Kebal lah katakan.

I didn’t cry a bit masa ma and abah tinggalkan dekat asrama masa registration day. Masa tu rasa macam hoorayyyyyyy bebas! Zaman remaja rebel yang dah malas nak basuh pinggan and lipat kain kat rumah haha. Masa kawan2 homesick and menangis2, I will the person yang, laah kenapa menangis ni. Sabar lah. And saya mmg bukan homesick person. Jarang la nak sedih2 teringat rumah. Situasi2 begitu hanyalah timbul bila tibanya musim exam ;p

Tetapi makin meningkatnya usia, kita makin faham fungsi rumah tu sendiri. Makin lama tempoh tak duduk rumah, just balik untuk cuti, makin kita menghargai masa2 kita di rumah. Sedar tak sedar, dah 5 tahun saya tinggalkan rumah. But then, home will still be my favourite place of all. Why?

because home is where the heart belongs to

Assalamualaikum

Wajah Kesayangan Hamba

Assalamualaikum wbt

Amaran : Ini post homesick.

Marilah berkenalan dengan wajah kesayangan hamba.

 

Cute isnt they? Ini adalah che dan ayah. Saya sentiasa rasa saya special di mata mereka (perasan). Sebab antara ramai2 cucu, saya lah yang paling lama dengan mereka. Saya tinggal dengan mereka sehingga saya form 1, kemudian saya pindah ke Selangor. Satu perasaan yang amat sedih. Hampir 13 tahun dibesarkan dengan mereka. Hari hari makan masakan che. Ikan bawal masam manis. Daging masak kicap. Ayam kari. Haha. Ayah hantar dan ambil saya dari sekolah. Layan telenovela dengan che petang2. Haha, ye nenek saya peminat telenovela. Daripada cerita Rosalinda, The Gardener’s Daughter, dan macam2 lagi, saya layan dengan che. Petang2, kalau ayah tak beli goreng pisang, che akan buat lempeng manis. Ataupun kuih bunga. Sangat sedap. Makan sambil minum air teh. Petang yang sangat best, sampai sekarang pun takde lagi petang yang bahagia seperti itu. Good old days. (lap air mata jap). Walaupun saya ni nakal, tapi mereka jarang marah saya. Saya pecahkan gelas, ayah akan cakap, gelas tu pun macam manusia, ada masa dia nak mati, pecah lah dia. Saya terharu sangat sebab dia sikit pun tak marah saya, jadi lepas tu saya berazam saya taknak pecahkan mana mana barang kaca dah. Masa saya form 1, saya ada projek ERT kena buat skirt. Saya kena beli barang2, che dan ayah baik sangat bawa saya pergi kedai belikan semua barang2 tu. Saya sangat rasa bersalah kerana menyusahkan atuk dan nenek saya. Mereka dah tua. Terima kasih che and ayah. Kalau saya nak tulis semua yang mereka buat pada saya, rasanya sampai esok pun tak habis. Hehe.

Maka apabila masuk form 2, saya pun pindah ke Selangor.

Tapi selepas 2 tahun, bila saya form4, Allah dekatkan balik saya pada mereka. Saya dapat tawaran ke MRSM PC di Pengkalan Chepa, Kelantan. Sekali lagi, che dan ayah la yang melayan karenah saya selama 2 tahun. Walaupun saya ni sangat mengada-ngada sehingga menyusahkan mereka, tapi saya cuma nak hiburkan mereka. Yela, duduk berdua di rumah mesti rasa sunyi sikit2. Boleh je beli iron sendiri masa outing, tapi saya suruh mereka belikan. (semata2 nak orang datang melawat) Bila che datang, bukan iron je dia bawak, biskut rokok, roti gardenia, dan macam2 lagi. Haha seronoknya. Kadang2 tu bawa buah anggur, kadang2 bawa saya beli nasi campur yang sangat sedap kat luar. Walaupun maktab boleh hantar pelajar sakit guna van maktab, saya yang mengada2 tahap dewa call nenek saya. Maka mereka bawa lah saya ke klinik. Bila boleh balik bermalam, saya pun balik tidur kat rumah che. Malam tu mesti che akan beli typicalnya nasi kerabu ayam percik Yati, ataupun nasi ayam + pelbagai kuih muih. Dan ayat che sebelum dia pergi sembahyang maghrib “habiskan lah makanan tu” dan maka saya pun habiskan lah, sampai full sangat2 dan mengantuk. Maka saya akan bangun sangat lewat keesokan hari. Masa saya nak SPM, stationary semua tu dibeli oleh nenek dan atuk saya. Mereka jelah pelawat constant saya di maktab. Kalau takde mereka, banyak sangat kesusahan yang saya akan hadapi. Sekalilagi, terima kasih che dan ayah.

Saya rindu nak duduk rumah che balik. Saya rindu nak susun barang groceries dalam kabinet lepas che balik pasar. Saya rindu nak ikut ayah pergi pos office hantar teka silang kata yang dia buat dalam surat khabar utusan. Saya rindu nak makan kek buah yang che buat. Saya rindu nak tolong belikan kelapa parut, tepung beras n telur kat kedai depan. Saya rindu semua tu.

Dan sekarang, sekali lagi, jarak memisahkan saya dengan mereka. Orang selalu kata, long distance relationship bla bla bla. Bagi saya, ini lah long distance relationship sebenar saya, walaupun beribu batu jauh, che dan ayah sentiasa dekat di hati. Segala ajaran, didikan semua saya semat dalam hati. Dan mereka tetap akan menjadi wajah kesayangan hamba ^^ Alin sayang che ngan ayah!

Ya Allah, berilah aku kesempatan untuk berbakti kepada mereka suatu hari nanti.

Assalamualaikum!